howdy partner (that’s me trying to be casual after not posting on my blog since last fall). how’s life been for you? because for me it’s been pretty eventful. from new albums to literally getting married. i made some great strides in my recovery, and was also met with a few setbacks. i experienced tragedy, then watched as it transformed into a miracle right in front of me. slowly, day by day, as my brother fought to survive for weeks on life support. i think i’m different now because of that. at least i feel different. i hope not in a weird way, although i do catch myself saying “god bless you” sometimes now.
i’m going to get back into the habit of writing here again now that things have begun slowing down. maybe i’ll write about the things that have happened in more detail. i don’t know. in the meantime, here’s a song i wrote a while ago called the labyrinth of everything. i hope you like it.
there is a darkness inside of your brain
and i don't think it'll ever go away
at least not entirely
through all that you try to be
you crawl and you hide beneath
all those layers of mountainside
the soil has calcified
you’re constantly wondering
if the monster will get to you
while you're navigating through
the labyrinth of everything
but i still like you even when the days are long
and i still like you through the cloudiness of the thickest fog
and i still like you through the months and months you were convinced it's gone
and i still like you a lot
i still like you even when the days are long
and i still like you through the empty space of a distant god
and i still like you through the years and years i couldn't get a job
and i still like you a lot
there is a darkness inside of your brain
and i don't think it'll ever go away
at least not entirely
through all that i try to be
i can feel it inside of me
like a bandage i couldn't close
a festering hologram
i'm sorry for everything
and now the monster has bitten you
and i would do anything
for you to roll up your sleeve
because the monster has bitten you
and all i'm trying to do
is show you where it's bitten me
it's bitten me