here’s a really touching one that i never showed anybody. it’s a little acoustic song from 2015, but it feels so much older than that to me. i guess because it’s such a personal song about a very powerful crush i had in high school, so even while writing it at the age of 25 it felt more like something i wrote at fifteen. then after recording it i decided to wait until the moment felt right and, well, now here we are. which is a shame because i had always intended to share this at some point, but i guess that’s just how it goes. sometimes pieces of work mean so much to you that it feels wrong to show others. sometimes you wait to release songs so long that you never end up releasing them at all, then you blink and almost ten years have passed.

i know this is very old internet of me, but i’ve made this mp3 easy to download. i know that in the age of streaming that doesn’t mean anything to most of you, but to those that it does, here it is. it’s yours to listen to as much as you want, or to send to other people, or upload to youtube for someone else to discover even ten years from now. but until then, here’s that song i wrote in 2015.

there’s dark on our bodies so slow down
you rest your head on my shoulder
which was nice
because i didn’t want our first time
to be something you regret
or hide

if you tell your mom
i’d tell my dad
i don’t think he’d react
i don’t think it’d be that bad

when you’d spend the night
and share jordan’s bed
and you’d close your eyes
was i in your head

if there was a cure
(as if religion could fix us now)
i bet it would hurt
(and if there was a god
i think it’d want me to know
how soft your arms are)

but i never thought that we could be
anywhere that they could see
you look like me