i’ve been making lists again as suggested by my therapist. things to accomplish through the day. something in front of me to focus on so that the negative thoughts don’t take over. it’s actually been helping a lot. it’s nice starting my morning writing different tasks on a bunch of sticky notes and pressing them to the side of my computer monitor. there’s something really satisfying about getting through one and tearing it off and…i don’t know. i’m feeling okay lately. good and productive and hopeful. i hope anyone out there reading this is feeling the same.
anyway, i wrote a song last week called palindrome. it kind of reminds me of old flatsound. simple, hushed, intimate, and with a heavy focus on the lyrics. i really do love writing lyrics. i’ve been writing a lot of them lately. my life is so much busier now compared to when i started flatsound but in many ways creating art feels the same. when i started i just wanted to prove, above anything else, that i was a good writer. ten years later and i’m just happy that i still have things to say. and melodies in my head, and metaphors that i’m able to find some kind of meaning in.
enjoy the song. i’m eternally grateful for anyone who takes the time to listen to the things i make, and feel endlessly lucky to know that some listen so attentively that they see pieces of themselves in it. thank you.
start the day off with a weight
and stomach pain
turn away
a simple call for subtle change
but every day
feels the same
come to life
valentine
and walk beside me close
come to life
little thoughts of mine
the ones that i love most
i’m walking in circles where my dad
used to stand among the plants and
they’re growing taller than i can
up the wall
over the fence
my hands are high
they grab the vines
and begin to climb the post
why have i begun
where i started from
it’s a palindrome i wrote
i want leaving to feel like
i’m coming home
so i’ve gotta try
i’ll try
i promise to try
because with you and i
in the night
i feel fine
with just you and i
in the night
i feel fine